#hope

some public thoughts

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jesus and nude

jesus and nude


Tuesday and wednesday I will work with addiction people. Thursday and friday we will have BBQ. To whom it may concern: this can be considered private, but does not *have* to necessarily. Once in the psycho-scene, very little remains private. Years and years of sparetime have passed away now 3 years ago. Altruistic instead of egocentric I should try to be even more helpful and do some sports. This could be healthy. But some beer is a *must*, because this life is so great.

To have an internet presence is a privilege. We have refugees 200 meters up the street and they need help. The more you give, the more you get. It may seem a bit confused, but my past drives me on and on, perhaps just bad conscience, but perhaps a call from our living Lord. A little peace for the beginning would help. BDSM is not illegal. I will try to protect every individual in need, minor or not. Mind is a new quality. My database abilities may not suffice for job, but the 5%-possibility case there are a hundred days of try-and-error there’ s a little chance.

Now some songtext-wisdom (imagine a deep, low voice) : if learning is living, then the truth is only a state of mind. I have tons of this stuff, but john 3:16 is a better ground to build your house on. They will laugh and spit on you, you better think twice, before you pray. So where’ s the sense in this blogpost apart from diary ? Any questions ? The case we meet, I will have a light for you. Dualistic as I am I permanently walk into danger, but that’ s life. Let me close this text, that will be multiplied at several social sites with some hope (dying or rising) :

stay true.
encourage.
live.
love.
make a difference.

signed as ashtray-ewing
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https://www.minds.com/blog/view/482299781796864000/some-public-thoughts
https://minds.com/ewing

you gotta hang on the trip you’ re on

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Feel free. Freedom is a gift. But it’ s always linked to responsibility. You eat meat, you are responsible for killing animals. Seems ridiculous, sounds esoteric, you watch porno, you are responsible for slavery. The places I go, google doesn’ t help. The streets you have to survive are a hard road layed out. Bus, supermarket and the fuckin’ internet seem to be public area. So, let’ s roll a pair of dice, what if you can’ t stand your boss anymore ? Will you take the responsibility for canceling the job and living on welfare ? Even further, what if there is no such thing as welfare ? If it’ s a question of life or death, yeah, every day ? Don’ t get me wrong, I just ask questions… What if your neighbour is a wife beater ? What if the boy next door lives in pain ? What if ticking timebombs everywhere ? The pack always comes back. Hard on soft, soft on hard. Will you elect the rotten tomatoe for president ? Who’ s gonna whip you when I’ m gone ? How much war do we need ? Lack of respect, everywhere… weed isn’ t a drug ? Mass destruction, hate, fear and loneliness. The people begin to laugh you start a sentence with the letter ‘j’. I’ m on humanity and empathy. Yo, man, the self fulfilling prophecy was broke down. You got freedom of speech and free will at your site, at least if you can read and understand this. A question of time ? A question of courage ? A question of liberty ? A question of politics ? I did not read ‘Oliver Twist’ and I did not watch ‘Forrest Gump’. But I got eyes. Eyes to see the whole misery. World of trouble. So where to get the hope ? Universal access to knowledge. Instincts and adrenaline. Day to day. Friends. Music. Love. Behaviour. Start a band, write. The river flows. So do I. Laugh. Strength, hope, happiness. Every day could be the last. Feel free.

Choice

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Emotional abuse is poison. It steals your free will. I am not a victim, but I know exactly how it works. This is meant to be an essay about mental hygiene. The anti-poison is psychoeducation. If you think to depend on what others say, you can at least try to learn self-reference. As a Vachss-reader I have been deep into the topic. And as an adult, you seem to face the same traps over and over again. It’ s like a voice whispering you are worth nothing, I have the power over you and you do what you have to do. Take a minute, think it over again and tell yourself I hear the voice, okay, it’ s there, but I don’ t wanna listen to it, I am boss. Let it be violence, let it be drug addiction, there’ s always a seed planted in your mind years and years ago and you have the power to fight it. As stated otherwise, we make our own monsters, but now I’ m repeating foreign thoughts. There’ s hope. Build a peer-group. Let go negative influences. If you’ re facing the same problems over and over again, each time you’ re a bit smarter, even wiser and you don’ t need to repeat your mistakes. It’ s all about choice. I choose to smoke, I choose to listen, I choose to turn the other way, I choose to build my own family.

Hate and fear are the enemies. If you didn’ t learn faith, as an adult it’ s difficult double. Take it or leave it, the lesson’ s worth a try. Surround yourself with encouraging people. Even become an encourager. Learn to look at the positive sites, hard to find, they may be little, but they’ re there. Let me leave a final quote, printed on some dub-record I own :

Trustbeliefloverespect

Hard enough, you do not *have* to repeat the evil seed. It’ s your choice, you are in control.

Stay tuned.

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